Sigh...

I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
Sorry for the corny lyrics...but dammit i don't know want to go. I leave for Ben Gurion airport at one today, then it's off to Charles De Gaulle Airport for a twelve hour torture of sitting in the airport all night. And then JFK airport and only then to Boston. I have missed my family and friends - but i was so happy to take a break from the daily responsibilities - i'm little bit scared now. I said most of my goodbyes yesterday - i like to have done more cleanly and faster but no such luck. So now i've been in a state of agitation since mid-afternoon. I always get this way before trips - nervous energy - but this is nervous energy plus the sadness of a long goodbyes and some emotional unresolved business. I'll miss Haifa terribly - the breathtaking views i got to experience coming from work everyday, the gracious people who hosted me and let me share with them their family time, the friends i made who put with my none existent Hebrew and all the boys i fell in love with here. I'll stop with the sappiness now.